Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Anti-Depressants

I've been on an anti-depressant for a little while. I didn't want to go on it, but my doctor thought it would be best. It has really helped me out, and I feel normal again. But going in I knew it would be a temporary thing, and now is the time to start tapering it off.

But I'm scared. Now that I'm "normal" again, I'm not sure I can be normal without it. My doctor assured me that the first few days of going every other day with the anti-depressant would be a little off, but then my body would kick in and take over and I'd be back to normal.

I told Bill about it, and I think he's a bit scared as well. He saw how I was before the medication: the crying over everything, the anger towards my children and him, the frustration, the wanting to just lie in bed in the morning and at night. And I remember it all too well, too. I want to feel like this, but without the medication. Will my body be able to do it?

I'll have to keep the pink ladies posted. The day after tomorrow is when I start tapering. Wish me luck.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

good luck! :)

Anonymous said...

Why do you have to taper off? If you are feeling better with it, can't you stay on it?

Constance the Super said...

I fall into the can't ever stop taking it category, but I'm a more extreme case. I do know that there are people who only need it for a while and hopefully you'll fall into that category. I am hoping for an easy transition for you!